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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 0:51:53 GMT
Dearest Ashton,
I know I am the last person you would like to hear from, and believe me when I say, I do not blame you. A lot has happened, and I dont mean just between us two. Things have been different and a lot of time has passed. I've had some time to think and I've had someone who has given me a lot of advice. I'm not sure what I would like to achieve with this letter, but I havn't given up hope, and I never will.
I understand if this letter finds its way to the fireplace of your common room, though I have one request. Would you meet me, 12 O'Clock, saturday afternoon in Hogsmeade. Outside the three broomsticks. I will wait until 1. If you dont show up by then, I know you arent coming. But even if you dont, know I wont give up.
Forever,
Maxi Maxi had sent this letter earlier on in the week. He had hoped beyond all hope that Ash would show, but like he said in his letter, he didnt blame him if he didnt. Thinking about it, Max wouldnt be sure if he would show up if someone had done what he had to to Ash, to him. Maxi didnt even know what he would say to Ashton when he got here, now he thought about it, his stomach was in knots and his heart felt like it was in his throat.
He made his way slolwy down to Hogsmeade, wondering how many people would have tried to convince Ash not to meet Max, and wondered if he had listened to them. He tried not to think about the bad side in all of this, and knew he still seemed like the cold hearted guy he had been percieved as, though it wasnt true and there was only one other person who knew this and that was Girty, whom he had found a friend in.
He waited outside the three broomsticks, twelve came and went, and soon it was half past. Maxi sighed as he leant against the wall, Ashton wasnt coming. He could feel it in his heart. |
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 1:08:35 GMT
Ashton saw Maxi leaning against the wall and went up behind him. "I got your letter. What do you want?" he asked in a cold voice that was not at all his own.
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 1:11:59 GMT
Quarter to one came and Max was seriously beginning to believe Ash wasnt coming. He sighed as he thought about it, he didnt blame him of course but what could he do? Max wasnt going to give up that was definate. He heard a voice, one belonging to Ashton, his heart clenched at the sound of his cold tone. He lifted himself off the wall and gave an awkward smile, what did he expect? Ash to be happy and throw his arms around Max? Of course not, Max had hurt Ash more than he could know.
"I wanted to talk" He told him. "Do you uh... Wanna get a drink or something?"
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 1:14:00 GMT
Ash raised an eyebrow. "Alright." he said, "But let me just say this right now. If you think I'm going to come crawling back to you, you better think again!"
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 1:17:53 GMT
Max looked at Ash and sighed, if he thought this was going to be easy, he was highly mistaken, "I didnt think you would" He told him, "But at least give me chance to say what i wanted to say, at least then I can say i tried" That was all Max was asking, and he knew it was probably too much, he opened the door for Ashton and sat down at the table, ordering two butterbeers for the pair.
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 1:20:55 GMT
Ash sat down and stared down at his lap. "Alright, what do you wanna say?" he asked as he looked up, sapphire eyes cold and unforgiving. He chewed on his lip ring, and pretended to be fascinated with his black fingernails as he waited for Maxi to answer.
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 1:30:09 GMT
"No small talk? Straight to business?" he thought to himself as the waitress brought the drinks over with a smile and placed them infront of the two boys. "How about sorry?" He said, probably not the best way to sort things out between them, "I know you wont forgive me for what I did to you and I dont blame you, Ash, I really dont" He sighed and drained some of his drink, "I thought I didnt love you anymore... Turns out you were right. My prefect status went to my head and I believed myself higher than everyone, than you."
He looked down, if there was anything that could be said about Max, he was rubbish at explaining himself. "I've realised, these past few months have been a total torture and I never knew why. At least not until last week. I was talking to Girty and she helped me realise a few things, thats what I came here to tell you... That I'm sorry" He sighed and looked back down to the golden liquid, "I know I owe you an explanation, its just I dont know where to begin..."
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 1:38:14 GMT
Ash couldn't help but smirk a little. "How bout the beginning?" he asked rolling his eyes, his snarkiness making a rare comeback.
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 1:45:40 GMT
"The beginning?" Max asked shocked, "Well that would be the most logical place to begin I suppose" He took a deep breath and looked at Ash, "Just... Dont walk out on me halfway through"
"Okay... Well, we were falling apart, slowly but surely we were, and you know that as well as i do" Max looked at him, "I know it was no fault of yours, it was mine. I was busy with prefect duties and it seemed as though i didnt have time for anything else, including you"
"I didnt want to keep you hanging onto me if i never had time enough for us. It wasnt fair but pushing all that aside, i believed i didnt love you anymore and i told you that. I went around acting cold and cruel as though none of it affected me, but it did. Not a day went by where i didnt think of you, of us. I missed you more than i thought i could but i didnt want to give you more hurt by telling you. Im only telling you now because i cant bear this feeling anymore and i needed to tell you Ash." He sighed, "A lot has happened, many things i cant explain, or i dont know how..." He looked back at Ashton, "I still love you. It never changed and i never stopped"
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 1:50:38 GMT
Ash sighed, he knew it had taken alot of guts for Maxi to do this. He looked Maxi straight in the eyes. "Max, I still love you two. I never stopped, but..." He sighed, and began again. "But, I don't know if I can trust you anymore. You've already hurt me once Maxi, how do I know you won't hurt me again?"
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 1:55:00 GMT
"You dont" Maxi answered truthfully, "I dont expect you to either, I dont know if I would even trust me, I've given you no reason to" He sighed and looked down at his drink once more, "But that doesnt mean I wont give up, I hurt you badly and I know I did. I put you in a place that was difficult to get out of and I know you're getting your life back on track now and I know im not a part of it" He smiled sadly at Aston, "And i dont expect you to forgive me either"
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 1:57:46 GMT
Ash sighed and smiled sadly, "I want you to be a part of it, I just don't know if I want you to be apart of it right now."
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 2:09:37 GMT
"I understand Ash" Max smiled sadly. He looked out of the window and began to think about things, things that he couldnt help. He had messed this up well and truely and there was nothing he could do right now to change that. "I'm trying you know, as long as you know that"
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Post by Professor Ashton Laurent on Feb 4, 2008 2:14:09 GMT
Ash nodded. "I know. You do realise however, that I still haven't forgiven you. Right?"
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Post by Max Hennerdale on Feb 4, 2008 2:21:35 GMT
Maxi looked up at Ash and gave a weak nod of his head, "Yes, I am aware of that fact" He told Ashton. The last time the two were faced with eachother, it had ended in Ashton running away from him. He wasnt surprised if that would be the outcome of this little get-together.
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