(H)Pain

[Jerred Boneman]

Jerred stood up in the rocky hills above Hogsmeade throwing and blasting rocks with his wand. He felt the anger and torment that he hadn't felt before, something that drove him into depression. He wanted Kim, but would step aside for Fin if she wished to have him.

Why do I feel this way? He thought as he threw a large rock and blasted it apart with Stupefy spell. Why does he have to like the same girl that I do? He only likes her because I do! He suddenly got into a fit of rage and levitated a large boulder and blew it apart.

"I won't have her..." He sighed, feeling that he knew the truth already.

[Brian Chase]

"Hey, it's ok. She isn't right for you, she is older and way more popular. That is why I don't love her, but I do like someone."

[Jerred Boneman]

"STUPEFY!" Jerred bellowed, feeling his rage grow. His spell fired at another boulder, blowing it to ashes. He breathed heavily, trying not to take his anger out on Brian. "You have no idea what it's like for me... all my life... I've had expectations set on me. Always I've thought I was a pureblood, but i'm only a Half-Blood. My family are pure-blood, my mother, my so called father, my brother... Me? I'm a half-blood. Born from a muggle father who raped my mother. I found him, you know, last summer. I saw fit to run him down with a muggle automobile." Jerred snickered. "It felt good, somehow. In a strange way. I've always been like this... until I met her. I met Kim and my life changed. I'm not so arrogant, not so mean to people... Why did I change? I didn't change for her, you know. I changed because... I don't know. But now, I don't want to lose her!" He growled as he fired another spell at the rock wall in front of him.

"Brian... do me a favour. If she chooses Fin, make sure you wipe my memory of me loving her." He turned to face him. "Do it, I know you can. If she chooses him... do it to me. You should be able to... I don't want to feel like a loser... like I have my entire life."

[Brian Chase]

"If I did that you would forget a lot more."

[Jerred Boneman]

"Maybe it's best I forget everything then..." He said, looking at the hole in the wall. "My life has been full of pain, it's not normal for someone full of hate and pain like me to feel this way. Maybe she only likes me because she has sympathy for me." Jerred looked at the hole, feeling the welcome release of frustration.

[Jinesh Jobalia]

"come on jerred.....dont be depressed.....is it the last thing u want?...think....does ur life end here?....no..i dont think ur a loser....losing a love is not losing everything.....i think ur motivated enough to get out of it......come on cheer up man.......letz go to the THREE BROOMSTICKS if u like...come on"

[Jerred Boneman]

"I haven't lost her, Jinsesh." He said, sullenly. "I just don't know if I have her yet."

[Brian Chase]

"Well exploding rocks won't help."

[Jerred Boneman]

"Exploding rocks is a way to vent my frustration." Jerred replied. "It means I can't blast them with everything I have without a care in the world... but I do have cares. I'll confront them. I'll conquer them and find out everything I need to do."

[Brian Chase]

"I'm sorry I told Fin I hated you."

[Jerred Boneman]

"Hmph. I'm surprised you haven't told me that sooner." Jerred said. "Look, I'll sort it out myself. Even if I have to stay away from her, which I promised I wouldn't do. ARGH!!!" He cried in frustration.

[Brian Chase]

"The best thing to do is what you believe is right."