[CR: S] Quiet Time

[Kim Rivers]

Kim walked into the common room and sat on the window ledge. She leant back against the wall and opened the window, letting the breeze capture her. She thought back to the incident. It had been haunting her through her dreams. Everyone blaming herself, but helia was right... It was nobodys fault, it happened by chance and it could have been anybody. But it wasnt.. It was me she looked out the window, taking comfert in the stars. The stars had become one of her closest friends, she had learnt to ready them and she could now hear, well see, what they said. The starlight soothed her, right down to the core. She sat there and muttered "Spiristalit!". A small ball of light appeared in her hands. She focused her mind and began to guide it, she guided it through the window and over the forest then brought it back. She used her mind to make patternes in front of her eyes. "It dances" she said to herself. She sat there, taking it in, she let the light wash over her as she sat there playing with it. She found herself calling these balls of light whenever her mind wandered or she felt alone. When she did, nothing else mattered. It was just her in her own little world. And sometimes... she wished she had never got close to anyone, she wished sometimes she was in her own world. Untill she was with the people she cared for. Thats when she found herself the most happiest. She guided the light all around the room, she watched it. Loved it.

[Jerred Boneman]

Jerred crept down the stairs from his dorm room, quietly. He saw a buzzing light swimming around the room and became suspicious. He crept down quieter, seeing into the room. He saw no one, until he went into the Common Room fully. He saw Kim, sitting by the window by herself with a smile on her face. He saw her looking out the window and at the ball of light. Jerred smiled, uncomfortably, as he felt he wouldn't be welcome to talk to her right now.

He decided to continue on his way, so he headed towards the door to go out for lunch.

[Kim Rivers]

She noticed Jerred "You know.. you dont have to walk away everytime you see me now.. Im not going to push you away" she said not taking her eyes off the stars or her mind of the ball of light.

[Jerred Boneman]

Jerred stopped and turned to face her. "You look happy, no need for me to interupt you looking at the stars." Jerred said. "I know you won't push me away, I thought you'd might like some time to yourself or something."

[Kim Rivers]

She stood up and walked over to him. "I heard you and Brian arguing outside the infirmary before. If thats the way you both feel.. You dont have to bother I wasnt suggesting it for my own confert you know. I was suggesting it to stop the tension between you two that puts strain on the rest of the gang. Even though i knew it was stupid, i thought maybe you two could grow to be friends.. Clearly i was wasting my time.. Might wanna pass that onto him aswell" she said. She didnt mean to snap but after seeing moncrieff lying there, unable to see, all the feelings of anger and hate that she had for herself came flooding back. "If you two dont want to get along.. fine.. dont... but just dont ask me to choose between you both because i couldnt" she said turning and walking back to the window and gazing back over the stars. "If you still want to go.." she finished

[Brian Chase]

"You would choose him." Brian said standing.

[Jerred Boneman]

"I won't go." Jerred said. "Look, I don't like Brian, thats a fact. But I'm trying to be his friend, trying to find something I like about the guy. Honestly, I am. I'm also doing it for you. He also told me something, that has put me in a weird frame of mind. He said not only you love me, but someone else. I feel... not betrayed, but different. I don't want to fight this other guy for your attention." He breathed, having to get it off his chest. "I just want you to know also, if need be, I'll step aside so you can be with him." He felt his heart jolt, feeling his pain increased.

[Kim Rivers]

She turned to brian "Dont tell me who i'd choose!" she said. The ball of light that once calmed her dissapeared "I'd rather walk away from both of you then choose between you" She looked at the fire "I dont want to choose any of you, but if you both stood in front of me and said 'me or him' i know what i'd do" she told him. "You know me quite well.. But you dont know the way my mind works. You have no idea what i think or feel" she looked away, back at the stars. "I didnt mean to snarl at you" she finished off

[Jerred Boneman]

"So it's Brian..." Jerred said. "That's why... you asked us to play nice." He felt himself grow stupid. He knew it. "I'll be going now, before I do anything stupid to you, Kim and to you Brian."

[Kim Rivers]

"what the..?" She stood up "Look... Right now i dont know how i feel about anyone or anything!" She said softly "My mind is, like everyone else's all over the place" "And i never said i chose brian.. Havent you been listening?" She said "I dont get why you two insist on fighting each other... Whats the point in it anyway"

[Jerred Boneman]

Jerred stopped. He heard the words, felt that his rash decision was pathetic. He slumped, his shoulders falling. He turned to face her, tears in his eyes.

"Until you clear your head, I won't be doing a thing to be with you in that way. It hurts me to say it... but I will be your friend." Jerred said, his heart aching. "Brian... I don't really hate you. I don't like the way you act because you're HeadBoy. I think you're nice guy, just a little to arrogant with the HeadBoy. I always thought that."

[Brian Chase]

"Kim, I meant you would choose him because you liked him. If you chose me I would tell you to choose Jerred."

[Kim Rivers]

"And i say your both being completley stupid." she looked at them both "Friends.. Okay.. Thats good" she said. Pausing after each word "And if it came to choosing id rather walk away from you both then have one in my life without the other. I couldnt choose between any of you.. Including Helia and Fin"

[Brian Chase]

"Thats not good for Fin."

[Kim Rivers]

"Are you going to tell me what you mean by that and what you and helia were on about by the lake? Or should i go and ask him myself?" she realised she was being really short tempered with everyone